i am you, from another time
I am you, from another time, if you experienced all that I had; everything and everyone I have come to know.
Will you recognize yourself when you see me?
In 2022, I kept a daily log. In the morning I captured three things I was grateful for, and in the evening, three moments where I experienced happiness. The results were varied each day.
My morning logs were often skewed by my recent wakeful state. I wrote of sleep, the morning light, and of espresso. My nightly logs were much different. Sometimes there were pages rambling about the day, all the glimmers of joy. Others were clearly filled with frustration that I set this task for myself. "Did anything make me happy today?”
I tell you all this because I fully indulged in my person at that time. It served then as it serves now; a reminder of who I was, who I am, and who I have yet to be. A reminder of all things Anna.
These days I find myself thinking more consciously about who I am. Locked in the space of staticity, where I am both change and unchanged. I am not the person I was yesterday, not the person I was a year ago, not the person I was a minute ago. I am not the person who arrived twenty-three years ago, fresh in the world without the impact of experience.
Will you be able to recognize me when you see me?
xoxo anna